There is an inexplicable amount of pain, whenever I’m hit with the realization of what I’ve lost. It wasn’t easy giving up on the valuable opportunity I was bestowed with, for my two years of hard work (which robbed me of my sanity). Well, I didn’t carelessly or mindlessly throw it away because it appears to have come easy without the usual apprehension and unrelenting procedures. Nevertheless, I got my mind twisted in the process and while I was trying to untangle, it spiraled out of control, leaving me beaten and worn out in the darkest crevices of my existence.
Every time, I set my foot in that place of broken dreams, I get agitated. It’s more like opening a Pandora box and realizing hope is nowhere to be found. Instead, there is a heavy presence of anguish, shame, guilt, regret and anger too. I could go on and on about the negativity that has consumed my mind. However, this moment I choose to see past the pain.
Though, at this very moment what I lost outweighs the gains, I make a promise to myself that it’s not going to remain this way. I’ve got my whole life ahead filled with possibilities and various opportunities. I do regret for having gone astray, yet there is a voice within the depths of my heart that keeps whispering:
This is not the END of your LIFE, nevertheless an END that has paved way for a NEW BEGINNING. It’s not going to be an easy ride but you got to hold on tight and conquer your dreams that make you feel truly and fiercely alive!
And I would like to end this post with a gentle reminder to myself:
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